How can I stop underestimating myself?
I have been treating myself like shit lately.
I have 100s of people who root for me but my mind pin points my emotional bandwidth on the ones who only see the "incapable" or "unworthy" side of me.
Whenever I think highly of myself, a tiny sinister voice creeps in and labels me as "arrogant" or "dellusional" or "overconfident".
PS: I am someone who was at times bullied in school for being too polite (people started to associate it with feminine energy, although now that I am an adult, I feel being softspoken has opened more doors for me than others). This did leave a scar on my self-esteem, given how pampered and protected I was as a child.
I think we need a secret diary just to note down what are the lines that come in our mind at such times.
Once we start writing, those thoughts won't appear again.
Try it
The format is simple - date and the thought. You don't need to mention I've been thinking or I thought or stuff... Just a simple, due to this scenario + thought
I did try that. I mean not in this very format but I kinda feel very voodoo and awkard while writing my thoughts
I think its result of bullying. Self love and acceptance is a journey in itself and happens over time. Focus on ppl who root for you and not the other side. U think logically that if u spend time thinking bout ppl who technically shouldnt be even thought of, you are wasting time. Chuck them and focus on your growth.