I am lost and confused about my career

I am 22 year guy who is interested in development and loves coding.But somehow don't know have lost my interest completely in everything. During my final year of college. I had got a job offer for Associate software engineer role in a cloud based startup. My college didn't let me attend further placement opportunities due to recession and when my college got over in May 2023 ,The company called me and informed that joining date was August 2023. But 4 days before the joining date,they revoked the offer. I was jobless and completely heartbroken at that time.After four months of grinding,I got a job in a testing based company. The company offered a 15k salary (13.5k in hand). It's been already 9 months since my graduation and due to my bad financial situation in my family.I joined the company hoping, I would get a better increment after the training period is completed. But now it's been 6 months and they are still paying me the same amount . This is not how I thought I would be leading my working life. I am not bragging about my self but I know,I deserve better than this,I am a MERN stack developer (I know, currently market is saturated with MERN stack developers),I have done app development in flutter, Basics of Machine learning.I am just sad not I am not working as a developer. I travel 2 hours for work and 9 hours of work. Daily 13 hours goes into this only.I come home tired and sleep. I am not blaming anyone for my situation,but I am mad at myself for not doing anything about it.Honestly speaking whenever I want to start something I will get confused and end up not doing anything. I don't have anyone to guide me or to help I am posting this,so someone in the tech community can help out