PeppySushi
PeppySushi

Confused, lost and directionless ...

Hi Grapeviners, So here's my story. I'm 27 years old. I've accumulated many regrets till now and it is piercing through my chest. My thoughts would be like spaghetti so bear with me. Never tried to be social. Made probably 3-4 friends in my life with whom I'm not in touch with anymore as they raced ahead in life. I remained holed up in my room at my parents home most of the time. The only thing I have to show for is a SWE job which also doesn't really interest me and it feels like a chore to do it. I don't feel excited to wake up in the morning and I wish the time after 12 am becomes still and the morning doesn't come. There are countless thoughts running around in my head 24/7 and the only time they aren't is when I'm asleep. I don't know what I want in life and I don't know what to do. I'm not a very smart guy. I don't get things easily. I don't even remember when was the last time I genuinely laughed with a free mind. Life seems over and it feels like I'm just breathing. For anyone who's thinking why I'm writing all this bullshit here when I know nobody cares is I just wanted to through these thoughts out in the universe and see what comes of it. Good or Bad I doesn't matter. Peace out.

2mo ago
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