Gist-
Prepared for JEE in Allen Kota, always been a low confidence , never believed in myself . Failed to clear JEE advance. Got Decent rank in SRM, VIT & State Eng. Exam then I did engineering from state's private college.
I was always passionate about computer sciecne, deeply invested my time in competitive programming/core subjects & started to believing in myself. Somehow due to some reason, I left all of this & landed in Service based company, did not got the work i wished for, still procrastinated there & It took me almost 3.5 years to leave the company then moved to product based startup but still not competent enoguh to land role in some of best startup/orgs.
During this phase I started to loose my hair & still loosing day by day(got so much insecurity). I tried multiple things to stop hair loss but failed. Doctors says it's androgenic alopecia. Due to long working hourse I got some other health problems too.
I feel life is always unfair.I don't know how to fill this void. I can't compromise becuase i always pushed myself beyond my limits, but in this case can'do enough.