Brainless thoughts

I only call my haters broke. 🤬 Everyone else is just a victim of capitalism. 🫡🤌

Did i write something? Sorry, i was just inking out loud.

In this world of irrational chaos, it's better to divide my disbelief between artificial intelligence and human intelligence.

In conclusion, I've neither relaxed nor been productive during this weekend. And i feel guilty about both. Meh. Fuk it. Consequences of my own actions.

You can't have a better side, without having a worse one.

The neurotic rabbit hole of worries is bottomless. 😩

Please bear with me while I'm dramatic. I'll be normal again in a few hours, i promise.

Finance and personal : DINK, but planning. No major savings or investments. Will be only a few lacs (10-15 lacs) before the baby is here. Wife will be off the job for a couple of years. Will be living pay-check to pay-check on my income, with a family to support. Struggling with health. Gained 20 kgs in 3 years. Putting efforts to undo this, but struggling. Professional: 8 yoe+ in Product management. Current employer not aligned with long term personal goals ( post 5 years type goals - tier 2 settle in, remote etc ) No increment since quite a while…company is growing but slowly. Mentally: Nothing is making sense. In the larger scheme of things, nothing really matters. Inertia is there to change job. No motivation to work at all. What will I even do after a job change ? There is no excitement of the same. No excitement of starting up myself either. Something doesnt feel right. I used to be the powerhouse of energy and motivation, a while back. Now I’m just the opposite. Is it fatigue speaking ?

Ironically, the true art of listening is to hear clearly what was not said.

Ever since 2020, it feels like years have passed within weeks. I can't possibly explain this in words, but for some reason, time has been passing a bit too fast. Before I realized it, my graduation was completed, someone who would seem a grown-up to the person I was before the lockdown. Festivals don't seem to make me happy now, and neither does having friends and going out with anyone...everything seems normal and everything goes by before I can process anything on my mind. Is it just me? I can't feel any emotions like I used to, is it something that all grown-ups go through/suffer with?