Slacked work for whole week

Disclaimer: This post is not for self validation or to seek attention. Posting here strictly for advice as I believe many people here must have gone through this. I’m a final year student studying BTech in India. I have a foreign internship confirmed from Feb next year, and my current intern at a startup is ending at 30th November. I’ve been working at this startup for more than 2 years now, poured my heart and soul into it, but due to career growth decisions I had to leave it. With nothing to do for next 2 months, I have started slacking off from work even though I have 20 days left, which is bad. All work and no play since last 3 months have left me so burnt out that I have done less than 6 hours of coding in last 1 week. It’s eating me up from inside as I have a huge obligation to this startup, plus there is so much to learn, and I don’t want to start my career with such unprofessional behaviour. Instagram and YouTube shorts have ruined my attention span, mental energy and will to work, and it’s affecting my mental and physical health as well. I have tried multiple motivational videos, practices, tips and tricks, everything. They help for maximum of 2 days and then it’s again back to this. Even though I’m hugely interested in tech, learning, devops and programming… motivation is dead and my life feels ruined, especially after seeing all the achievements people are having in and around social media, linkedin etc. I just don’t know what to do to overcome this lazyness.

Too many things broken at the same time! 1. Broke off with a girl i liked 2. Insane busy schedule 3. Had some fights with colleague 4. Had no motivation to hit the gym Need some positive vibes 🤞🏻

So thing is In last 1 week my manager/project lead has been threating that you will have to work on weekend if you dont complete your task by friday and put the the task to testing. And this boils my blood soo damnn much . But as a person who is on lowest level i cant do/say shit. I just disagree with him and dont argue. What would you have done .[ practical advice only] And thing is i do all my dev work on time even earlier almost everytime and he just goes around and threatens everyone with this. Soo annoying thay dumbfk needs to get rekt .

I always think of studying or building that one project over the weekend or complete that one chore which is pending from past 2 years! But fail everytime, I don't even move on weekends i don't like going anywhere I don't even like house full of people I just want quite time in weekends but unfortunately don't get it so I feel like I have not relaxed properly and this makes me think I deserve to be lazy all because of this have not studied from a long time so much so that I am almost back to being a noob on my skills its so freakin heart breaking where I have landed myself and I repeatedly do this every week! I can't even focus on one thing. Even if I quit social media and get serious it's just for 2-3 days max after that I am back to the procrastination den. Please guide, seriously need advice and steps that can be helpful to overcome this.

I will start with mine. “Took leave on several days to complete pending documents & items” My company is not bothered about a person bandwidth🥲 Is this the same everywhere?

Less than 50 days left to end 2023, What did you achieve this year?

I turned 30 last month and I still feel i am a 20 year old. I lost the last 4 years of my life working from home and have started to go to office recently. I never worked together in a team, never been out for team lunches/dinners, never presented my work to the seniors/leadership. I have 4.5 years experience on the paper and my interaction with colleagues in person has been almost zero . I don’t know how to do my taxes, can’t do basic servicing of my bike, extremely indiscipline’s, rarely track my expenses, can’t say ‘No’, haven’t upskill we and hence stuck in TCS, can’t stick to a hobby or interest, pathetic in managing my time, have no sense of punctuality, socially awakened, overweight with a pot belly and hence have confidence issues, can’t take care of myself in terms of self grooming, couldn’t maintain friendships as I used to get offended when someone made fun of me or mocked me- my inflated ego is just useless. I can’t control my emotions, I sometimes get emotional and have tears in my eyes, I show emotions easily on my face, not smart when it comes to dealing with others, don’t know how much to talk to whom, whom to talk to, how to talk to and when to talk. I’ve been told I’m pessimistic and highly negative about myself but I’m just saying things the way it is. I have no responsibilities on life. I’ll be getting married the next year and I know I can take up the responsibility. But I still have the fear of putting my fiancé down. I love her a lot and I never even would do anything to put her down. My bad time management skills, inability to focus, getting distracted badly, being a slow learner, not networking, not having idea on making switches regularly, being too lazy and impatient to learn new things, not being updated in terms of on demand skills, tools , technologies, reluctance to learn something new and hence staying in comfort zone has screwed up my career. I feel stuck and lost in life. I honestly don’t know what to do.

I have seen so many posts, on Grapevine alone, of how people are being harrassed and traumatized in their companies. And honestly, reading all those posts and comments scare the hell out of me because I haven't been subjected to or witnessed anything like this. Let me share the experience I have had till now: I have ~2 YOE, and Capgemini is my first company. I know the pay isn't great, but that's the only thing I don't like about the company. The people I have met or worked with in the entirety of my time here, they are supportive, kind, and considerate. Every single one of them, including the managers/directors. They don't expect you to work late hours or on weekends, unless there are critical escalations/important deadlines. My manager gives out words of thanks and appreciation, even on the smallest of things (yes he talks strictly too, and usually I am at the wrong when this happens, nothing major though). I get all the support that I need. I don't have to worry about the work life balance. I have never had a single issue with a teammate, and most of them are seniors whom I work with. No big egos, no attitude, nothing. They help out whenever I reach out to them. And it is the same story on my client side as well. I have worked/interacted with both male and female leaders, and all I have ever seen among everyone is empathy, respect for everyone's work, and always ready to help nature. I understand that this is all just my experience, but my reason for writing this post is to share a positive experience and that there are still good people around here.

I see a lot of posts about WLB, I want to know what do you consider as a decent WLB. I will go first. 1. Leave early if the work for that day is done 2. No pings and calls post work hours, there are always exceptions and thats okay, should not become a norm 3. Respecting when someone is in vacation and not disturbing them. 4. Not rejecting leaves I will add more in comments If more comes to my mind.

Has someone else also felt this that the weekends feel too lonely and saddening. I go to office 5 days a week have good set of work friends across team (the people in my fellowship), go to gym and hangout with people in PG. But boom as weekend is here there is no work no Gym no friends in office or pG to hangout with. Friday night I pass with playstation games but Saturday becomes like a helll for me. I forcibly motivate myself to give a mock test on Sunday and end the weekend but weekend is like the worst part of my week. Anyone else facing it or tips to make it better